In memory

Something from a few years back that has been sitting in draft... 
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Brandy finally passed away, after a long, painful week last week. Strangely, and again, no one at home bothered to call me and let me know. Perhaps its just one of those things with Asian family.. or my family in particular. What would you said? besides the fact?

I found out as I called my mom to ask her whether I can still consume fish balls that has been in my freeze for about 3 years. As usual, asking how everyone is doing. she then mentioned that Brandy has passed after in pain toward the last few days in which she can't even be comfortable enough to sleep. Doesn't even want to eat.. doesn't even want to stand.. No one wants her euthanize, but in hindsight.. it might have been a better choice.

Tho, when I visited, I came in to a conclusion that she still want to live. While her physical body is falling her, she still wants to be - following my dad, barking at people, smelling grass, or the smells other dogs has left. I don't think it would've been fair to her to choose that option for her if she still has the will to live.

If I were to write an eulogy for her - this is what I would've said:
Brandy had lived a long happy life of 16.5 years. Unfortunately, this year was especially difficult for her, as she battle tumors, growths, and possibly cancer.

She came to our household as a surprise to my mom as we already had another dog. Many attempts of giving her away always ended up in her being returned. Excuses such as "my mom is allergic to dogs", "she likes to bite" and a few name changes... which at the end , my mom gave up and said she can stay.

She grew up to be a very pretty dog - a bit headstrong but extremely loyal. She is very stubborn. There is nothing that gets in her way - the kitchen door.. the windows... the gates, in which she jumps thru a few times in the times when she either wants in or wants out. Headstrong but sweet...

RIP.

I found my blog !

I found my blog!!! 

Ok, not like I would actually do anything like actually - blog - any, or more, or more frequently or what.  But, for a while I was trying to actually figure out where it was (moving between computers... not keeping blog post up to date, getting married and stuff like that all makes one person forgetful).

I drew a complete blank ...

I'll have to remember to somehow link this somewhere, or at least bookmark it so I can find it next time I feel the urge to complain / write about something.